Why I Choose Not to Hate My Body

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Some days, I really hate my body. I look in the mirror and pick apart the squishy parts of me. I hate the “mummy tummy” that hangs where my flat stomach used to be. I hate that my arms jiggle when I blow dry my hair. I hate how my thighs rub together when I walk. I hate how I have a double chin. And don’t even get me started on boobs….ha! 

It’s days like this where I have to choose to appreciate the good things about my body. I am strong and athletic. I have killer quads and calves. I have great shoulders. I am able to walk, run or ride a bike. I can swim, jog and dance. 

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You see, just like most things in life, it comes down to choices. Making choices can be tough and it’s something that you get to do a million times a day! Yes, I can sit here and mourn over the things I don’t like, or I can choose to accept them as part of where I am at right now. I have to choose to focus on the good things about my body and not give power to the parts I don’t like. 

I have to choose not to punish myself with a torturous workout at the gym or withhold yummy foods and “carbs”. I choose to celebrate the ability to move and be strong and to eat as much apple pie as I want (ps, someone please save me from this pie!!). I choose to nurture my mind and soul by not criticizing myself or my body. 

It’s not just a one time decision either. It’s like choosing healthy foods over junk- you have to do it multiple times a day. Some with having body love- you have to choose it every time you see a mirror or struggle into a pair of jeans. But, by choosing to love your body, you become more comfortable in your own skin and give people permission to do the same. 

What do you do? Do you act like a hater or do you appreciate the good things about your body?

Naked Apple Butter

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I still have apples, lol. It’s like the never ending box. So, what do you do when you have a ton of apples? Make apple butter!!! My mom used to make this with a ton of sugar, which of course, made it delicioso. However, since I don’t usually eat sugar, I looked for a recipe that didn’t add sugar.

OLYMPUS DIGITAL CAMERAMy fave vegan blogger, Angela Liddon at Ohsheglows, has a delicious recipe for Naked Apple Butter. It’s delightful!! I love to put it on my Almond Flour Drop Biscuits, modified from Elana’s Pantry. Angela’s new cookbook is pretty freakin awesome too! 

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I use it pretty much every day. That and Against All Grains: Meals Made Simple. I usually just look up recipes on line, but these two books have well worn pages for sure. 

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My son is 6 weeks old (well, as of last Sunday). Where the hell did 6 weeks go??? I can’t believe it is almost November to boot. Having a baby does terrible things to your sense of time. I am happy to report that we have had two consecutive nights of 6 hour chunks of sleep!! Woohoo! 

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Well, I will keep this one short since little man is just waking up from his nap. :)

Topless Apple Pie

I have sooo many apples left from my 40 pound box, despite making multiple pies, crisps and butters! I feel like I finally perfected this pie recipe and I love it! I don’t peel the apples because I have the ultimate excuse of having a newborn and no time to peel. I think it would taste better with peeled apples, so, if you make it, take the time to peel.

I hope you enjoy this pie as much as I do!
 

Topless Apple Pie
Yields 1
A deliciously healthy alternative to the sugar and wheat filled holiday dessert.
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Prep Time
30 min
Cook Time
25 min
Total Time
55 min
Prep Time
30 min
Cook Time
25 min
Total Time
55 min
For Crust
  1. ¾ cup almond flour
  2. • 3 tbsp coconut flour
  3. • 1 egg
  4. • ¼ cup coconut oil or butter, melted
For Filling
  1. • 5 medium-sized apples, peeled and diced (granny smith or honeycrisp)
  2. • 4 tablespoons coconut oil
  3. • 1/2 cup raw honey
  4. • 1 tablespoon coconut flour
  5. • 2 teaspoons cinnamon
  6. • 1 teaspoon nutmeg
  7. • 1/8 teaspoon cloves
  8. • 1 tablespoon vanilla extract
Instructions
  1. Pre-heat oven to 350 degrees.
For Crust
  1. Grease pie pan.
  2. Mix all ingredients, place dough in center of pan and gently press outward to the upper rim of the pan.
  3. Set in the fridge while you make the filling.
For Filling
  1. Melt the coconut oil in a pot on medium heat.
  2. Add the honey, apples, and spices.
  3. Stir the mixture to cover the apples with the oil, honey, and spices.
  4. Add in the coconut flour and mix well.
  5. Add in the vanilla extract and turn off the heat.
  6. Pour apple mix into cooled pie crust.
  7. Bake for 25 minutes or until rim of crust is light brown.
Notes
  1. Garnish with coconut milk whipped cream or coconut milk ice cream for a dairy free option. You could also omit the honey for a sugar free option (my personal preference). You can also double the crust recipe to make a lattice for the top if you so desire.
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Give Me All of the Food!!!

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Breastfeeding gives you the worlds biggest appetite EVER!!! I eat and then feel as though my stomach is empty. Sometimes I get tired of eating so much because my options are limited. It is insane!! I eat the biggest portions of meat, veggies and fat and am still hungry! This salad barely made a dent!!

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I am constantly hot and thirsty. The thirst hits like a tornado- fast and furious. I chug liter after liter as I feed my little one.

OLYMPUS DIGITAL CAMERASo, I have been trying to cook as much as I can. I recently got a 40# box of winter banana apples which I have been trying to use up. I have made apple crisp, apple pie (recipe coming up soon!!), apple butter (recipe from Ohsheglows) and apple sauce. (I keep thinking of Bubba listing off ways to cook shrimp!).

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I have also been using the crockpot a ton since I don’t have a ton of time to use the stove or oven. I made a big batch of beef and chicken broth and tonight a fryer chicken and gravy (from the awesome Nom Nom Paleo blog).

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I also made a big batch of Spaghetti Squash Mac N Cheese- my fave!!  I also did a butternut squash chili that was quite delicious with a beef mix of liver, heart and muscle meat!!

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I have my 6 week post-partum appointment with one of the midwives on Monday. I have been thinking a lot about it since the last time I posted about my weight battle. I am still a little nervous, but have been working on giving myself permission to not worry about it right now. My main focus is on taking care of myself, feeding my baby well and loving him, taking care of my husband and loving him well and taking care of my home. I try to get to the gym three times a week to lift (because it makes me feel like one hot mama!) and walk as much as I can. I also try and move as much as I can throughout the day to increase my daily activity. I will let you know how it goes!!

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My workouts have been the same. I do an upper body day and a lower body day, while doing “abs” at home (lot’s of planks). Upper body is a lot of pushing and pulling with a barbell and lat pull down machine. Lower body is a lot of squats, deadlifts and lunges. I am amazed at how flat my butt has become and how flabby my triceps have gotten. Sometimes I worry that when I go back to work (a week from tomorrow!) that people will be skeptical of my being a personal trainer because I don’t “look” like a personal trainer. Does that make sense? I am trying not to think like that, but sometimes it is hard not to.

Anyways, I hope you don’t mind my honesty here. I have always tried to be authentic about my journey: successes, losses, triumphs and struggles. It is my hope and passion that sharing my journey will help others on theirs.

By the way, if you like my blog, please let others know about it, especially if you know someone who would be encouraged by finding healthy food recipes :) I will keep working to update my actual recipe page (as it is severely outdated!!). Thank you so much!!!

My Post-Partum Battle With the Scale

Before getting pregnant in December, I never weighed myself. It’s not that I didn’t have access to a scale, I just didn’t care. My body felt strong and in my opinion, looked pretty darn good. I was happy with what I saw in the mirror and never gave a second thought to body fat percentage, weight, measurements or clothing sizes.

In the last 10 months, I have been weighed almost 20 times and this has triggered a long forgotten vice that I have for numbers. It’s been a week since my last “weigh in” at the doctors and since then, I haven’t stopped thinking about my weight. It has been in the corner of my mind all week long.

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3 weeks post-partum (and a new hair cut to celebrate turning 30!)

I had lost 23 pounds in two weeks since having my son, which put my in the low 150’s- a place I haven’t been in a while. I now have this fear that once my body adjusts to breastfeeding, that I am going to gain the weight back and balloon up. My rational mind knows that eating the way I do (pretty strict Paleo- just to put a “label” on it), this is not going to happen and that by walking for an hour everyday and working out when I feel I want to will keep that from happening.

But, the former fat girl in me likes the idea that I lost so much weight eating so much and not doing HIIT workouts. The former control freak in me wants to start counting calories and logging food. The ocd side of me wants to eliminate all sugar to ensure more weight loss.

The reason I share this with you is twofold: 1) I value honesty and believe that sharing struggles is an important part of growth. 2) Getting these struggles out there provides accountability for me and a place to receive encouragement and help. I am sure no one else has ever struggled with this….but if by some chance you have or you are, maybe you can find solace in the fact that health is a journey, not a destination. Sometimes it’s two steps forward, one step back or one step to the side. No one is perfect and we all have struggles that pop up from time to time.

So, now that this is out there, I am going to find a friend to help keep me in check and make sure that I am thinking healthy positive thoughts about my food and my body.

If you need some accountability, let me know! I will happily help you on your journey!!

Hugs!

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3 weeks, 2 days- I love this little boy!!!

Welcome Home, Louis!

Sorry for my delayed absence once again!! My son, Louis, was born September 14th and life has been crazy ever since!!

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Mom and baby are doing awesome! Breastfeeding was rough at first, but I think we have the hang of it now. He is eating like a champ and gaining the perfect amount of weight. He sleeps like a champ and I get about 6-8 hours a night! Go Louis! He is just shy of 8 pounds, but I have already had to pack away some clothes that don’t fit him anymore. It’s a good thing I got a TON of baby clothes size 3 months and up!!

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Week 1

We love (ok, I do, him, not so much) to go for long walks around our neighborhood. He has a great jogging stroller which I am finding myself not coordinated enough to use, ha! We walk for 30-90 minutes a day which helps me keep my sanity since we stay at home most of the time just the two of us.

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Milky stretch, 2.5 weeks old

He is not a fan of diaper changes, bath time or sitting in the car seat for more than an hour. But, we still get out and run errands together. It’s crazy to think we have been driving around together for 9 months and now it takes twice as long to get anywhere!!

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My dear sweet amazing friend Renee

I am doing fabulous! My soreness was gone after a week- yay! My hormones were Horrible that first week and I cried a lot. My dear friend Renee was with us the first week of his life which was incredible. I definitely did not want her to go. I seem to be managing to keep the house clean, laundry done and food cooked, although it blesses my socks off when people bring food. Holy cow!!!

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2 weeks

I had my two week appointment on Tuesday and was super surprised to step on the scale and see that I was down 23 pounds!!! I only gained 17 with Louis, so this was a big surprise! It’s awesome! I eat as much as I can and drink a TON of water and am still seeing my tummy shrink a little everyday. I am overjoyed because my mom was never able to lose her baby weight and she struggled for most of her adult life with her weight. A lot of my clients are in the same boat, so this brings much relief.

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My husband is Uh-Mazing!!! He is a natural with newborns and I have dubbed him the Baby Whisperer as he can calm Louis in two minutes flat. What a man!!! He loves to snuggle Louis and is not afraid of a poopy diaper. I am so incredibly proud of him!

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I think I will post my birth story on here. I love sharing it and am amazed at how the body does what it does in labor. So….here it is! 

Thank you for your support and patience!!! 

Amazing Vegan Recipes from Oh She Glows!!

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Last night, nestingpalooza was in full swing! I cleaned up the house and got my barefoot and her pregnant self into the kitchen. (Women belong in the kitchen- heck, everyone belongs in the kitchen, it’s where the food is!!) I had flagged some recipes from Angela Liddon’s of OhSheGlows new cookbook, “Oh She Glows Cookbook” that I wanted to try and have on hand for when my friend Renee flies up tomorrow. I didn’t take any pictures while I was cooking, so here are some pictures from the beautiful book which is proudly sitting on my coffee table!

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I started with making her Life Affirming Warm Nacho Dip because it just sounded so satisfying. It was a little more time consuming than I would like, but I found with all of Angela’s recipes that they require a little more work but it is ALWAYS worth it!!

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While that was cooking, I moved onto her Effortless Anytime Balsamic Dressing. That was quick and easy- assemble and shake! We will probably use it tonight on a simple salad. I love having clean, crap free ingredients food in the house. Most balsamics have added thickeners, gums, sugar and junk. This way, it’s muuuuch cheaper too!

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Then it was onto Indian Lentil Cauliflower Soup! I left out the lentils, onions and garlic because I want to have this post-baby. I used a Thai Curry spice from Whole Foods which smelled uh-mazing! I got 3 quart jars out of it! Can’t wait to try it!!

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Then I made some Chili Lime Delicata squash which is always a house favorite around here! Anything with chili, lime and cilantro is a win in my book. I tried not to eat all of it- always a challenge!!

I also made some bone broth since the mornings are a little chilly and I like to have alternatives to my buttered coffee in the morning. I always feel better when I start the day with water, broth or tea rather than coffee, but I do love me some butter in it!

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Next up was a test batch of lactation cookies. There are a ton of recipes out there, but I am having a hard time finding one that has low sugar, no grains and still tastes good. This one I found from The Sprouting Seed were really good!! I used three capsules of Fenugreek (too many!) instead of brewers yeast, but next time I will stick to two. I had three for breakfast this morning :) Hey, I need power food for my walk coming up!

After about four hours of cooking and cleaning, I realized that my hips and feet were suuuper sore. I definitely overdid it with all of the walking, swimming and standing and had a harder time falling asleep because of the achiness. I am not complaining too much though, since the aches only started this week.

Ok, I’m off to go for my walk on Powell Butte! Have a wonderful Thursday!!!

P.S. My hubs, who worked a 13 hour day, brought ME home flowers!!! What an incredible man I am married to! I love you, Tim!
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2 Weeks Til Baby!!!

Well, it’s been a little while! I have not missed blogging much since I have been working at the gym, at home and seeing private practice clients- whew!! This is my first full week not being at the gym and I loooove how much time it has freed up in my life! I get to focus on me and what I love to do!

Here’s a little bit of what I have been up to for the last nine months…..

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I love being pregnant! It has been such a fun journey to be on and I am so thankful for the chance to experience this miracle of life! It hasn’t been easy, but I definitely love it and want to help other women have a positive experience with it too.

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So, I want to start incorporating some posts on prenatal nutrition, exercise and wellness that I truly believe have made all the difference for me. I have studied and read a ton on this subject and feel that proper nutrition and exercise can make it smooth sailing!

So, if you have any comments or questions about health, wellness, prenatal- anything, let me know!! I am still working on getting the comments section figure out, so you can also email me at kimludeman@yahoo.com. Thanks!!!

New Chapters….

Hi everyone!! It’s been, well, a little while! What can I say? At 21 weeks preggo, life has gotten more and more crazy and busy and blogging unfortunately has been put on the back burner. I miss you all so much and have a little something to share!

Baby Bump Pics

First off, we had out 20 week ultrasound and discovered that our baby is a boy!! I was shocked since I thought for sure it was a girl, but I am now head over heels crazy about my son!

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He is quite a looker (if you like the boney, see through kind of thing)! We are so very excited!!! I have launched into Pinterest projects for the nursery that may or may not bankrupt us. In the meantime, we are enjoying kicks and hiccups from our Mr. Ludeman!

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Next up, I am joining up with Kevin Geary at the Rebooted Body to help save the world from dieting and self-sabotage!!

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Kevin and I have extremely similar philosophies and approaches when it comes to sustainable holistic health, so how could  I not jump (literally) at the chance to join in the fun?! So, head on over for awesome content, killer podcasts and an amazing Rebooted lifestyle program that will change your life! You can also follow us on Twitter and Facebook!

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Oh, and guess what?! They put in a Natural Grocers on 82nd Ave. where the old Goodwill used to be! It has a huge variety of super healthy foods at really reasonable prices. If you’re in the area, go check it out! They also have locations in Gresham and Beaverton!

Have an awesome Cinco de Mayo!!!

Top 50 Health Coaching Blogs

So, it’s been a month since I have blogged, but I have a good reason I promise!! I have been a wee bit distracted the last 10 weeks because…….OLYMPUS DIGITAL CAMERA

We’re pregnant!!!

Yup, Baby Ludeman will be joining our happy family in mid-September!!!

So, needless to say, I have been a bit pre-occupied and not blogging like I want to be. I want this blog to be a place where people can come and find yummy recipes, honest struggles with living a healthy lifestyle and solid information about how to pursue a healthier life. So, I was very surprised when I found out that www.Trainer-Kim.com was voted #14 of 50 top health coaching blogs by the Institute for the Psychology of Eating!!! Wow!! What an honor!!

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Last year, they included this blog on their top 50 Paleo blogs, which was huge (even though I am not technically a “Paleo” blog)!! I am so blessed by the feedback I receive from this blog!! PS, if you post comments, they most likely won’t go through. I am having trouble with spam and currently have over 8,000 comments for moderation. Yikes!

Anyways, I am hoping to post 3 times a week and am open to any and all suggestions! If you have ideas, head over to my Facebook page and leave a comment or message me!

Eating and Moving for a Healthier Life!