Success for me has always been defined by numbers. The number on the scale could make or break my entire day. The number of calories written in my endless food logs had to be under a certain amount. Success was eating using measuring cups and meticulously tracking every single calorie I consumed. The number of days that I worked out in the gym. The number of reps and the amount of weight used drove me on to push and push (or maybe punish?) myself. The number on the tags of my clothes kept me motivated- the endless striving for that elusive size 4 always calling my name. The number of miles ran in a week and the total number on my Nike Fuel Band.
Numbers pushed me on toward my version of being successful, or more accurately, being in control. As long as I lived my life according to the numbers, I would be successful. It took me about 6 years of this madness to realize that even though I counted all of these numbers, I still didn’t feel successful. I achieved all of the things you are told you need to achieve to be successful, yet I kept feeling farther and farther from it. I was never satisfied with my body or performance- I always wanted more.
It took me a long time to redefine what success looks like for ME. I discovered that success really means listening to my body and acting accordingly. A successful day is looking in the mirror and appreciating what I see instead of picking it apart. It means eating when I am hungry and stopping when I am satisfied. It means being intentional with movement and doing that which makes me feel good. It means creating margin in my life and prioritizing sleep. It means continuing to learn more about myself and how I can grow, not change.
For me, these are the real measures of success. I don’t live by buzzwords like “healthy” or “fit”. I simply seek to live a life full of meaning, intention and movement. My motivation comes from finding joy in everyday rituals and continuing to be the best version of myself that I can. True success is loving myself, my family, friends and those around me.
What does true success look like for you? What will it take for you to be truly successful??